Ever feel so overwhelmed, that depression creeps in and pitches a tent and plans to stay?
Yeah, me too.
I tend to have a difficult time when life is so overwhelming (like now) and I know there is nothing I can do to change it. I love my life, my family, and homeschooling and I wouldn't trade them for anything. But the fact that I have seven children who very much need their mom isn't going to change anytime soon - Lord willing. To say I've been overwhelmed this winter is an understatement.
I've felt bitter that I can't do the things and complete the projects I'd like to.
Even though mothering is what I want to do even more.
I've felt sad that I can't be everything to everybody around here.
Even though I know I can't possibly be and am not created to be.
I've sat staring empty out the window, because I have no idea what to do with myself when it's quiet.
Even though I have several hobbies that are begging to be picked up.
I've felt upset that I'm so worn out that I can't even stay up and enjoy myself after the kids are in bed.
Even though rest is what I really need.
But the fog has lifted.
That thick fog that surrounded me on all sides is evaporated.
A new day has dawned for this mama who has a new perspective.
This is what He has for me. And this I'm going to do. For Him.
I still stink at having a good attitude sometimes. Like the other day when I was standing at the sink doing the dishes on the verge of frustrated and worn-out tears with a major tension headache threatening.
"I can't do this, God," I prayed.
In an instant, He spoke this to my heart, "But this is what I have for you right now."
Because He gave me this task, and because I have complete faith that He will see me through by His strength - I will do it. To the best of my ability, relying on Him and for His fame, not mine.
17 And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.